music: gloomy tango - a love to kill ost. CHANGED to : sad tango english version - rain BI :D
chatting:appear offline
feeling: i feel so bad for moping (no particular reason) .. aish T_T""

A Cursed Love > "Section of beautiful love stories in the world are unique.."
No, you don't belong to me
No, we don't belong together
Not the first time I saw you, not even when you entered my heart

Run away so my eyes can't find you
So my feelings don't grow
So my heart doesn't know

You sprung out of hate
But you planted a root of love in my heart

I can't pretend it didn't happen
The tears fall too quickly
If only I hadn't seen you, no, if only you didn't exist
I wouldn't ache so much

I hate you for showing me love
For making yourself the reason for my being
I can't control myself

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today .. was weird as.. i think i've changed a lot during the weekends and it's not such a good change either .. i feel as if.. something inside me wants to go out.. and i don't know what the fuck it is.. =\ random tears keep falling.. no reason.. with the piano playing .. tinge of melancholy.. everything just goes weird.. and after a while i just come back to my senses again.. weird eh? to be honest, i don't exactly enjoy what's happening with me.. feels like i have a huge problem (i don't though) .. aiya .. ><" .. iono what to bloody do.. i'm so confused.. and sad.. and happy.. and fucking retarded lols. and you know what else is weird? i said to my mum this morning.. "mum i dont wanna go to church" and shes like okay.. and out of nowhere im like "mum i love you and you're the person i admire the most in this world" (in filo) i was shocked and im sure she was too.. so she started giving me this lecture about her love towards me.. i like almost cried.. (which is very unlikely) and yeh she went church and left me alone.. still alone atm.. both of my parentals are out.. since i woke up.. yeh they kinda left when iwas sleeping lols weird.. i was meant to go out with sandy and go to jono's bday thing.. but i like got blanked out, i told sandy i wasnt gonna go.. but i dont think i told john .. mm.. i just seriously didnt remember.. well i did but i didnt know what time to go or where so hah .. tuff titties.. lols xD ..

HIGHLIGHTS OF MY DAY:
 * 7 oclock : woke up (woah early for a damn weekend)
 * went back to sleep till 11..
 * had a dream .. woke up with tears ? HOW QUEER IS THAT. i can't remember what the dream is though
 * ate lunch and realised the time was going so damn slow .. @__@
 * bored.. so started drawing
 * decided to watch sang doo again.. so i did .. from 1 - 7 pm
 * went on the net to download stuff .................................................................
 * weirded out to the max (it aint porn) its music.. im so freaked out cos of it
 * still listening to it @_@
 * blogging now =D

I'm so gonna watch a love to kill again (when ate marie returns it) .. gosh it's so fucking omg'ing .. it's like a masterpiece.. it's not just a drama.. not just series.. it's like a piece of art.. whoever wrote the story is a fucking genius man @_@" .. oh and rain looks absolutely stunning in it lols xD mm .. i really want something at the moment.. but i don't know what .. everything is so confusing nowadays.. like yeh.. times where you just feel like sititng in one dark corner of your room and cry till you can't cry no more.. scream till you can't scream anymore.. (sounds emo right? well i'm not usually like this so stfu) neway .. yeh .. i still feel weird.. i hope when i sleep tonight everything will be fine.. like when i wake up tomorrow i'm back to normal.. and i don't wanna carry these emotions to school tomorrow.. no one really knows what the hell is wrong with me.. not even myself.. and another thing is, i don't talk to anyone about it.. so i guess blogging is a good way of doing it .. cos if i wrote in my diary i'll probably wreck it.. just like what i did before.. you see my blog, i'm like such a good kid.. i hide my feelings and keep it in till i'm all alone.. what people say about me? oh she's cathy, she never cries.. only when she's hurt (physically!!!! ><) she like always laughs.. smiles randomly.. even if shes sad she still smiles.. somewhere between those lines.. bad stuff people say about me? I'M BLOODY DEAF XD. reason? whenever people talk to me my mind is somewhere else, yes it's true.. i'm not deaf.. i'm just queer.. and it's not my ipod.. it's my brain.. NOT MY EARS EITHER.. kk? kk kool xDD. ahh .. my tummy hurtss.. lol @ tummy.. hmm .. random . my hair looks perfect right now ! wait till i wake up tomorrow.. i betcha anything it's gonna be fcked up *faints*.. SEKYAAAAAA. . . kekekeekekeke .. sarang haeyo babo yah .. that was random .. if you don't understand that you're weird.. nah jokes lols.. means i love you idiot .. kekekeekekekekeke :D .. im so bored .. and i'm gonna go in .. 3 2 1 .. BBYES :D